Still Dying To Be Read

           Still Dying To Be Read

      I Once Dreamt I Was A Poet

        When I Write I Feel Alive

      Perhaps I'm A Starving Artist

          When Will I Be Noticed ?

              The Day After I Die

Time Is A Curse I Could Never Change

Yet My Unheard Words I Still Rehearse

          If Only I Could Re-Arrange

           The Stars In The Universe

      Old Age Is Creeping Up On Me

Breathe Some Life Into My Weary Soul

   So Let Me Be The Words You Read

    Before I Pass Away , And End Up 

    In One Of Earths Darkened Holes

Mine Are Not Always Words Of Wisdom

    Yet I'm A Storyteller Just The Same

    Free Me From This Illiterate Prison

          And Take Away My Pain

     Where Has The World Gone ?

      Did Life Just Pass Me Bye ?

      I Feel I No Longer Belong

          Should I Even Try ?

Seems No One Read A Word I Said

       Years Later , Still Waiting

        Still Dying To Be Read.....

               July 17 2020

                        Crafting Words

          Don't Be Afraid Of My Thoughts

I've Spent My Life Crafting Words Into Stories

For I'm Fully Committed To My Literary Love

       To This End I Give God The Glory

         Perhaps My Feelings Are Too Deep

As For Me , I'm Unashamed Of My Eloquence

           I'm An Instrument , So Play Me

 My Words Are Here For You To Experience 

Be A Part Of Everything I Write

   Share Your Smile With Me

Let's Dance And Sing Tonight

And Let Our Love Forever Be 

Does My Poetry Speak To You ?

Let Me Whisper In Your Ear

It's All For You , It's True

My Beautiful Words For You To Hear

I've Spent My Life Writing Poetry

The Years Pass Bye And I've Grown

Words Meant For You To Read

As You're Being Shown

My Words Speak For Themselves

But I'll Introduce You Anyway

For They Long To Meet You

So Come Out To See Us Play

Let Me Paint My Lyrics

Into The Mirrors Of Your Mind

Let My Dreams Exist

It's Only My Words You'll Find.....

                            ..... July 10 2020

Only To Her , My Love , I Trust

She Flows In And Out Of My Dreams

In Her I Feel An Angels Touch

Does She Know What She Means To Me

To Her , My Love , I Trust

My Amorous Mood May Be Hers Too

She's Beautiful And Unique

So I Told Her The Truth

She's The Only One For Me

Her Spark Starts A Fire In My Heart

That Burns Deep Within My Soul

In My Life She Shall Be A Part

I Know She Knows , For Her My Love Grows

My Eyes No Longer Need To Wander

For No One Knows Me Better Than She

Of This World , She's A Wonder

So I Shall Pledge My Heart To Thee

We Flow In And Out Of Each Others Dreams

In Her I Feel An Angels Touch

She Knows How Much To Me She Means

Only To Her , My Love , I Trust.....

                         

                  Understand

  Shadows Of The Evenings Sunset

Lovers Locked Within Their Embrace

         A Kiss To Never Forget

  And That Smile Upon Her Face

   His Heart Beats Through His Chest

          He's Asked For Her Hand

Soon Their Love Will Be Put To The Test

           To Love , To Understand

Understanding Is The Hardest Of All

For The Human Condition Is Fragile

      Stay Strong Or You May Fall

For It's Thin Glass Upon Which You Walk

There Is A Love That Binds Together Two Souls

          When Loves Language Is Learned

      A Seamless Understanding Takes Hold

  If You Feel This Feeling , Don't Ever Let Go

When Two Hearts Beat As One

It's Even Harder To Be Apart

And When The "I Do's" Are Done

Try To Always Remain As One

So Take A Walk In The Sun

With Rings Upon Your Fingers

Because Now Two Souls Become One

This Is Together , This Is Forever

For Now Two Have Become One

               Understand.....

                           .....July 17 2020

                  Let It Go

    Change Is One Of The Hardest

Accomplishments I've Ever Achieved

I Now Spend My Time Trying To Be

        A Decent Human Being

  Sobriety Is One Of The Best Gifts

           I've Ever Received

In The Mirror I've Met A New Being

           Seeing Is Believing

You Didn't Like Me When I Was A Drunk

     Now You Question My Spirituality

I'm Sorry , But I No Longer Carry That Burden

       For I Now Share My Humility

  Let's Back Up In Time , Shall We

It's The Day Before I Lost My Mind

  I Dug Myself A Deep Dark Hole

         No Peace Did I Find

    I Thought I Lost My Soul

  Sorrow Never Takes A Break

Until You Break Sorrows Chains

         For Your Own Sake

        Let Go Of Your Pain

Please Forgive Me And Try To Understand

         I'm Not The Man I Once Was

Suffering Is No Longer A Part Of My Plans

       And I Still Long To Be Your Man

      I Know How Much I've Hurt You

I'm Still Trying To Climb Out Of That Hole

            That I Dug So Long Ago

    I Long To Be The Man I Once Was

               So Please Let Me Try

           Quit Bringing Up The Past

           Please Let It Go , Let It Go.....

                                      .....July 19 2020

               Double A's

     Wrapped In Broken Glass

 Caught In The Web Of My Lies

        Hiding From The Past

So You Wouldn't See My Disguise

   Sorrow Falls From My Pain

     Cruelty Creates My Rage

               Once Again ,

Here I Stand In The Pouring Rain

Instead Of Letting Go Of My Pain

Wrapped In Broken Glass

        A Gift For You

  I'm A Pain In The Ass

Will I Always Be A Fool ?

      I Once Strangled Joy

 My Darkness Took Control

   A Desperate Angry Boy

Who May Have Lost His Soul

My So Called Life Has Derailed

   Time Passes So Quickly Bye

       Now All Systems Fail

    For I'm Still Living A Lie

Take Me Away From The Idiots Laughter

          Where The Sluggards Hide

         For Here The Joker Is Master

      And Heavenly Rules Are Denied

I Try To Catch Myself As I'm Falling

     Losing All I've Ever Lived For

I No Longer Hear My Destiny Calling

  As If Fate Had Slammed The Door

I Never Really Knew Where I Belonged

         Betrayed By My Disease 

        I Who Was Never Wrong

         I Who Did As I Pleased

              Pain And Misery

   Is Something I No Longer Need

My Little Problem Grew Into My Addiction

        All I've Lived For Is Now Gone

          I Need To Make A Decision

      I Think I Know Where I Belong

Here Beyond The Doors With Double A's

  People Just Like Me , I Learn To Pray

I Learn To Seek Peace , So Here I'll Stay

Let Me Learn To Be Meek , As I Now Pray

          For It's Gods Grace I Seek

           Thank You Lord For AA.....

                                 .....June 20 2022

                      

                     Love Is My Song

        I'm A Lonely Man In A Strange Land

I Share My Affection With An Anguished Angel

          She Visits My Dreams Every Night

      I Long To Hold Her In My Loving Arms

                 Her Presence Is Welcome

                 Any Time , Day Or Night

             For I Long To Wake With Her

               Within The Morning Light

        Love Builds Unbreakable Devotion

When I'm With Her I Feel A Celestial Peace

        Like Some Kind Of New Emotion

     For Feelings Of Love Refuse To Cease

    (Chorus)   Love Is My Song

                     Love Is The Start

                   Love Is The Answer

                For Love Is In My Heart

   I Never Again Long To Leave Her Side

  If I Could I'd Always Be Where You Are

    Two Worlds Collide , I Don't Ask Why

For I Know Our Love Is Written In The Stars

My Affection For You Is Deeper Than The Sea

Like The Magnet , I'm Attracted To Only You

For You Brought Me To Where I Long To Be

Right By My Side , And Always On My Mind

                     You Know It's True !

 (Chorus)  Love Is My Song , Love Is The Start

Love Is The Answer , For Love Is In My Heart

Walk With Me , Take My Hand

I'm Inviting You Into My Dream

I Offer You My Hand , Understand

For I Long To Treat You As My Queen

My Heart Is Yours , As Yours Is Mine

    Our Vows , Never To Be Broken

Our Love Will Stand The Test Of Time

  No Truer Words Were Ever Spoken

Feelings You've Been Denied

     Open To Me Your Heart

Have You Ever Felt The Love Inside ?

    Together , Let's Make A Start

(Chorus) Love Is My Song , Love Is The Start

Love Is The Answer , For Love Is In My Heart

I've Found Myself Within Your Love

        Your Hands Hold My Heart

            You Really Turn Me On

    In Your Life I Long To Play A Part

Our Time Has At Last Arrived

Always Be The One

Our Love Can't Be Denied

I Love To Turn You On

Love Is My Song.....

               .....July 21 2020

                     

              Jealousy

From The Cradle To The Grave

      From Dawn Until Dusk

         Beware The Knaves

For Those You Shouldn't Trust

    Trapped Within Jealousy

  Hidden Behind Their Smile

  Not Meant For You To See

  Conspiring All The While

Why Does Everyone Think They Need

   To Be Better Than Everyone Else ?

Would They Care To Carry My Pain ?

   Be Happy With What You Have

        Why All This Disdain ?

We Wander Around All Depressed

  Searching For A Reason To Cry

Some Get So Obsessed With Death

     That They Commit Suicide

        No Reason To End It All

   There's Always A Reason To Live

     Would There Be A Consequence

If We Learned To Be Kind And Forgive ?

           Is Jealousy Felt By All ?

Or Do We Just Choose Not To Admit It ?

     With Our Backs Against The Wall

        Seems We Just Can't Escape It

    I've Finally Learned To Reach Into

    My Heart And Forget My Jealousy

I Accept My Defects For What They Are

          I'm Only A Human Being

               Gods Work Of Art

No Matter My Faults , Mine They Are

I'm No Longer Ashamed Of My Scars

  For Each One Has A Story To Tell

So I'll Keep Reaching For The Stars        

And As Always , I Wish You Well.....

Let's Leave Jealousy Rotting In Hell.....

                                     ..... July 21 2020

          Jealousy (Part One)

Was I Bound For Misery At Birth ?

Or Am I Just An Unfortunate Soul

       Wallowing In Self Pity

  Just Waiting To Lose Control

Should I Be Jealous Of Those Who

Were Born Into A Life Of Wealth ?

 People Who Didn't Have To Lift 

  Not So Much As A Finger To 

         Have Everything

They Have The Privilege Of Wealth

   Born Into A Prosperous Family

So Into Themselves , It's Sickening

    Growing Up In High Society

      These Spoiled Brats Had Love And 

   Riches Poured Upon Them Since They

        Were Born Into Their Easy Life

Soon They Have Fame Added To Their Fortune

Growing Up In The Spotlight

What Do They Do For A Living ?

Oh! I'm A Professional Socialite !

And There's No Penalties For My Misgivings

Oh! To Be Born So Blessed ,So Pure , So Clean

        Without A Blemish , Without A Flaw

           The Beautiful ,  Grandiose Ones

       Who Love To Look Down Upon Me

Me , I Was Born Into Poverty

My Parents Were Drug Addicts

And I Have Mental Problems

    This Much I'll Admit

My Jealousy And My Ugliness Turned

Me Into Someone I Never Wanted To Be

I No Longer Need To Impress The World

Why Should My Spirit Be Poisoned By

My Jealousy

Jealousy Once Made A Monster Of Me

I Shouldn't Care What Others Think

I Have Intelligence , I Have A Soul

Perhaps A New Found Peace

Within The World I Now Behold

 My Skepticism Of Pretentious People

Would See Me Reaching For The Stars

      I Seek To Be Somebody Else

       A Person You Never Knew

         Letting Go Of Jealousy

       Was All I Had To Do !!!!!

                                  .....1990