DYING TO BE READ

      DYING TO BE READ              

    THE PERFECT RHYME

         CHAPTER ONE


 All My Life I've Been Searching

       For The Perfect Rhyme

Through The Seasons Of Time

 From The Sands On The Shore

       To The Stars In The Sky   

         The Reason I'm Alive

I Long To Find The Perfect Rhyme


   I Know Not How It Started

    It Just Happened One Day

  People Told Me I Was Crazy

They Would Always Turn Away

   I Would Just Turn The Page

 Writing Until My Fingers Bled

No One Reading A Word I Said.....


       CRYING IN WORDS  


     My Poetic Determination

    Leads Me Into Frustration

        For What I Write

     Is Meant To Be Read

 Would You Please Read Me

      I'm Crying In Words


          I Have No Voice

   As The Pen Is My Choice

      I Need You To Listen

 Yet I Don't Need Your Ears

     You Won't Hear Me

    I'm Crying In Words


  My Words Have The Power

To Make You Feel As I've Felt

  Upon These Words I Dwell

Cast Without A Spell,  And Oh

   So Many Stories To Tell


No One Has Feelings For Me

      I'm Crying In Words

      I'm Crying In Words

      I'm Crying In Words.....

THE POET DUDE IS ON YOU TUBE

         ( Channel )  Steven Adamski


When I Was Young My Mother And Father

          Would Play Lots Of Music

       I Paid Attention To The Words

          The Lyrics Seemed To Be

      Speaking To Me , So Then Out 

      Came The Paper And My Pen

 My Thoughts , A Waterfall Of Dreams

          As My Imagination Grows

   My Thoughts Land Upon The Page

    Like The River , My Words Flow

   And Perhaps Someday I'll Be That

 Storyteller Speaking Upon The Stage .....


         WORDS, WORDS,

   MY BEAUTIFUL WORDS


 My First Memories Of Inspiration

Were Given To Me By My Mother

           And The Beatles

Golden Slumbers Filled My Mind

      I Dreamt I Was A Writer

        I Dreamt In Rhyme


Momma Would Play This Wondrous

         Music All The Time

Momma Taught Me How To Write

   I Taught Me How To Rhyme

 An Obsession Within My Mind


I Listen In Awe ,

          As I Feel The Words

A Voice I Longed To Have

       A Voice Inside Of Me

      Longing To Be Heard


I Could No Longer Keep

The Pen Out Of My Hand

Imagination , Infatuation

Words , Words ,

      My Beautiful Words

Written For You

   Written For The World


I Love Writing Endless Verse

 Determined To Be A Poet

The Years May Pass Me Bye

Yet My Dream Is Never Over

Writing Until The Day I Die


So Here I Am , Upon The Stage

Behind The Podium Once Again

  I Once Again Turn The Page

As I Read My Writings To You

     My Unknown Friends


Words , Words ,

          My Beautiful Words

Written For You

      Written For The World

Thank You For Letting Me Share

       My Beautiful Words.....


                    CHAPTER TWO

                   ONCE A FRIEND


No Pot Of Gold At The End Of The Rainbow

Did Thunder Call To You From Within The Storm

As I Wonder How He Could Take His Own Life

I Now Feel The Shackles He Had Once Worn


      Betrayed By His Self Inflicted Will

        My Desperate Friend Has Died

   All Alone Choosing Himself To Kill

     All Alone My Best Friend Dies

    All Alone His Best Friend Cries


Thousands Of Children On An Empty Stage

 Rehearsing Their Own Death , The Climax

        Their Rage , Their Last Breath

            At Such An Early Age


       Does Anyone Know The Reason

In Life's Darkest Season , To Return To Dust

    And Be Washed Away By The Rain

  To Lose Trust , To Have Lived In Vain


  I Look Into The Eye Of The Storm

  I See The Tears Within Many Eyes

 Forever More In Their Memory Kept

The Face Of A Friend We've Just Left

          Lying Beneath The Earth

Within The Shadow Of Eternal Rest


         I Now Sit In Solitude

How May I Answer This Question

      Such A Negative Attitude

     In An Unknown Direction

   For He Had No Feelings For 

        Another's Affection

Please Answer My Question

    Answer My Question.....

         

              SHOULD YOU


      Should You Follow The Stars

     Should You Follow The Leader

As I'm The Writer , You're My Reader

     Should You Walk In The Rain

     Don't Drown Within Sorrow

       Should We Smile Again

      For It All Ends Tomorrow


Should You See Their Dreams

Should They Touch Your Heart

Should You Hear Their Screams

       It's Too Soon To Part


         Between You And I

         Feelings Are Far To

        Deep To Compromise

          Should You Laugh

           Should You Cry

       Should You Miss Me

Should It Be My Time To Die


       Life's Not As It Seems

 When No One Seems To Care

      Life Was Just A Dream

Yet Reality Was The Nightmare


     Going Through Life

   So Much Aggravation

    Dreaming Of Death

   Too Much Hesitation  


  Should You Treat The Flame

With Respect Instead Of Desire

    Should You Burn In Hell

     Introduced To The Fire


   When Life's Not What It Seems

    When You Couldn't Change

When Death Is No Longer A Dream

   When Death Is Pre - Arranged

 Should Your Soul Be Exchanged ?????


                  THE ANSWER LIES


     A Stairway Of Sand Will Take You Nowhere

Take Hold Of My Hand Should You Fall Into Despair

 I Tried To Reach Out , You Offer Me Your Disgrace

 Death Within Your Smile , As You Spit In My Face


            Have You Forgotten Our Friendship

      As You Put Your Life Around Your Throat

               As The Noose Begins To Slip

                  It's The End Of The Rope


         The Answer Lies , The Answer Lies

          The Question Remains Forever Lost

           The Answer Lies , The Answer Lies

 Tell Me What To Feel When My Best Friend Dies


Now The Answer Lies Behind Forever Closed Eyes

      Never To See Me Again , Nor Speak To Me

                          Or Be My Friend


             As I Place Flowers At His Grave

           I Remember The Face Of The Friend 

                     That I Couldn't Save


           There's No Answer To My Question

                  As Tears Fill My Eyes

           I Never Even Told Him Good Bye.....


                   CHILD OF THE ROPE


Was Your Life Not Worth The Anger You Possessed

 When You Reached Your Final Height Of Torment

        Why Did You Have To Be So Obsessed


               A Thirst For Blasphemy

       Quenched Within Your Final Hour

               Hungry For A Destiny 

               Soon To Be Devoured


 Child Of The Rope , Desperate To Escape

 Too Much To Take , Too Much ,Too Late


  All Eyes Are One Tear ,For Your Fate We Feared

Within Our Tears Rain , Memories Within The Drops

                   Too Soon To Reach His End

             My Best Friends Life Has Stopped


      You Took Your Last Breath , It Wasn't A Joke

You Introduced Yourself To Death ,You Chose The Rope

         Child Of The Rope , Desperate To Escape

          Too Much To Take , Too Much Too Late


                 Tears I Never Thought I'd Cry

                Never Thought That You Would Die

        I Sometimes Wonder Why I Couldn't Stop It

            I Really Did Care , Let's Just Drop It.....


      I'M EVERYTHING , I'M NOT


      It's No Use , I Just Can't Forget

            Echoing In My Mind

           Everything , Nothing

      A Friend I Miss , A Friend

        That I'll Never Forget


       I Woke This Morning 

       With A Bad Attitude

In A Whiskey Bottle I Find Solitude

       I've Forgotten Last Night

     I Remember The Morning

       For Only A Moment

I No Longer Remember Your Name

      Or How My Times Spent


      I Wash Down My Pain

       With Another Shot

 It's The Only Peace I Know

   I'm Everything , I'm Not.....


        ALCOHOLIC


 I Can't Resist Temptation

Existing Upon Intoxication

     To The Bottle I Fall

My Obsession With Alcohol


No Where Left To Hide

Overflowing With Pride

   Nothing Left Inside

   As I'm Living A Lie


Whiskey In My Blood

  My Heart Distilled

My Kidneys Are Mud

My Liver To Be Killed


 My Dreams Deceased

  Inebriated Thoughts

   My Mind Diseased

No Lessons Been Taught


    I Refuse To Stop

    I Refuse To Quit

I'm Everything , I'm Not

   For This Is My Writ.....


            CHAPTER THREE

            SHE'S NOT THERE


Wandering Aimlessly Through A Life Of Silence

All Alone With His Torn Up Conscience

It's No One He's Searching For

There Must Be Somebody Out There

To Take His Hand And Show Him The Way

Out Of The Shadows Where He Hides His Pain

Through Her Veil Of Darkness They Share A Stare

He Tries To Touch Her , She's Not Really There.....


               LONELY


I've Often Wondered What It's Like

To Be More Than Just Friends

Have I Met The Girl At Last

Will She Make A Man Of Me

Or Have I Again Thought To Fast


Will Love Pass Me Bye

Or Should I Be Calm

As She Looks Into My Heart

Sweat In My Palms


Trying To Be Kind

I'm Defeating My Purpose

With Her On My Mind

It's Making Me Nervous


I've Tried And I've Cried

It's Just To Hard To Pretend

Lonely Is Still The Name

In Shame My Love's Sent

Soon To Be Forgotten

Lonely One Hundred Per Cent.....


MY ONLY FRIEND , MY PEN


The Only Friend I Have Is My Pen

It's A Lonely World On The Page Again

I Stay Up All Night Writing Words

For No One To Read

I Care Not What Anyone Thinks

It's What I Long To Be

I'll Write Better Than Anyone Else

I'll Show You , You'll See...

Just Read.....


MY RESTLESS RHYMES


Another Night , Another Song

As For Me , There's Something Wrong


Question Without Answer

My Pen Bleeds Upon The Page

For The Drummer , And The Dancer

On Stage Share Their Rage


Blessed With Rhyme

Lost In My Songs

Searching For Time

I've Waited To Long


I'm Still Searching For The Perfect Rhyme

It's Somewhere Within My Dreams

This Rhyme I May Never Find

So Far Away It Seems


I Practice Rhyme All The Time

My Sinful Rhymes - Confessed

A Lonely Rhyme - Depressed

The Naked Rhyme - Undressed

An Immature Rhyme - Put To The Test


My Restless Rhymes , To Much To Digest

I'll Never Stop Writing !!!

Until The Day After I Pass Away

 Rhyme Shall Never Rest

As Long As I Have Something To Say.....


CHAPTER FOUR

         GIRL

A Smile ,  A Girl

Feelings I'm Being Shown

She Throws A Kiss At Me

My Hearts Taken Away

I Can't Believe It

She's Looking My Way


I Tell Her Of My Feelings

She Speaks Of Hers

Our First Kiss , A Thousand Words

A Million Rhymes

I'm Gonna Be Hers , She's Gonna Be Mine


All My Sorrow Now Turns Around

I Have To Tell The World

Of This Love I've Found

So I Write Down In Words

My Feelings For Her.....


SHE'S HAPPENING TO ME


My Heart Was Deserted

The Day We Met

The Arrow Inserted

I'll Never Forget


Your Touch Is My Treat

Your Love I Could Be

Until Next We Meet

I'll Sweep You Off Your Feet


Sweeter Than Honey

She Holds My Hand

Worth More Than My Money

She Knows Where She Stands


I Can't Believe

It's Almost A Dream

I Can't Believe

She's Happening To Me


I'm At The Point

Where My Heart Gives In

For This Reminds Me

Of A Love I Must Win


If She Should Frown

You Know It Brings Me Down

Aquarian Angel

For Your Love , I Would Drown


As The Oceans , 

Deep Are My Emotions

And As The Flower

My Love For Her Grows


I Can't Believe

As If In A Dream

I Can't Believe

She's Happening To Me


Within My Arms

Within My Heart

Like A Painting

She's A Work Of Art


I Feel Her Touch

Easing Me On

And I Do Believe

She's Happening To Me


She's Unlocked My Heart

She's Within My Soul

I'd Never Leave You 

So Don't Ever Go.....


                   SHE


She Convinces Me This Is Not A Dream

She Loves Me As Much As I Love Her

Does She Know How Much She Really

Means To Me

Does She Love Me As Much As I Love Her

Does She Understand Me

Does She Understand

Does She,,,,,She?.....


              UNDERSTAND


Precious Is The Love I've Been Shown

Our Destiny Lies Ahead Remaining Unknown

She Taught Me Of Love , As If In A Dream

Feeling Love , For In Love I've Never Been


Her Arrow In My Heart Will Always Be

If She Chooses To Stay With Only Me

Morning Comes To Often ,I've Got To Leave To Soon

But I'll Be Back To Love Her When The Night Sky 

Holds A New Moon


She's The Only Flower In My Garden Of Love

A Precious Petal Is Shed For Me

I'm Her Sunshine From Above

She's Within My Soul

She Holds My Heart In Her Hands

I'll Always Be Here For Her To Hold

I Hope She Understands.....


I DON'T UNDERSTAND


The Space Between Us Is Growing

Why Won't You Tell Me Where Your Going

You've Introduced Me To The Feelings Of Love

And Now You Want To Throw Me Away

I Don't Understand


Lost In My Confusion , I Still Feel Love

I Long For Your Touch , Did I Ask Too Much

I Still Don't Understand , Are We Still In Love ?????


                     SO FAR AWAY


My Acquaintance Anguish , Come Back To Me

As I Bathe In My Tears , Intrude Upon My Misery

I've Lived For I've Loved , Lonesome Is No Good

Do You Feel As I Feel , As I Need Your Love


                (Chorus) So Far Away

             My Emotions Unchained

                             So Far Away

         Don't Tell Me My Loves In Vain

                             So Far Away

            You'll Never Put Out My Flame


It's Been Lonely Days Since We've Been Apart

My Only Wish , To Hold Onto Your Heart

Breaking Down The Distance Between Us

I'm Seeing Visions I've Never Seen

I See Your Face Encircled In Clouds

I Just Wish I Could See You Now


You're More Than A Thought , An Endless Desire

A Perfect Match , For You Lit My Fire

Such Empty Feelings , Of My Pain There's No Measure

Your Absence Leaves Me In Ruin

Forever Lost Is My Treasure

I'm Infinitely Undone , Reflecting Upon Memories

No More Love , For She Has Gone


So Far Away , My Emotions Unchained

So Far Away , Don't Tell Me My Loves In Vain

So Far Away , You'll Never Put Out My Flame

So Far Away , My Love For You Will Always Remain

So Far Away , My Heart Still Feels The Pain.....


THE FLAME BURNS DIM


Please Tell Me How To Forget The Love She Taught Me Of

The Months And Years When She Was Here

Have Changed My Life , Yet My Words Are Not Enough

To Change Her Mind

When She's Gone I Hope It's Love She Finds


The Candle Still Burns Deep Within My Heart

The Flame Burns Dim , As For Her Feelings For Me

Perhaps , Given To Him

Her Face , Her Name   My Pain , My Shame

Our Picture In A Frame , You'll Never Put Out My Flame.....


           PICTURE OF US


              Tears Fill My Eyes

As Your Memory Dwells Within My Mind

        A Thought I've Misplaced

  I No Longer See Your Pretty Face


            You Reminded Me

       Our Love Had No Future

          I'm Blind , Yet I See

   I'm No Longer In The Picture


      Are You Afraid Of Love

       Are You Afraid Of Me

    Am I Afraid Of The Faces 

       In The Picture I See


   A Transparent Personality

Did You See Right Through Me

You've Shattered My Affections

       You Broke My Heart

Imagine All We Could Have Been


Picture Of Pity Painted In Pain

  Resemblance Of Our Image

     Captured In A Frame.....


                  SHE'S GONE


        A Lovebird That Flies Away

  Is The One Who Never Longed To Stay

 Love Is The Flower That Withered Away

As She Was The Love That Left Me Today


           Lightning Held The Power

        Of Our Love , Now Devoured

       As The Candle Holds The Light

       My Flames Put Out This Night


        As My Feelings Fade Away

              I'm Still Confused

         Why Wouldn't You Stay

You Know It's Me You'll Never Replace

  And All Our Memories , I Can't Erase


          She's Gone , She's Gone

     To Sing Someone Else's Song

    My Songbird Has Flown Away

      As My Nest Is Now Empty.....


                Thank You

For The Love You Once Lent Me.....


                I WAS


You Don't Want Me (Keep Me)

How Did Love Lead To Misery (Want Me)

Your Love Is My Hunger (Feed Me)

I Still Want You , Your Obscenity (Rape Me)

We No Longer Live In Each Others Fantasies (You Hurt Me)

I Was Your Lover I Was Your Need (Need Me)

Remember Our Pleasure Together (Feel Me)

Why Won't You See (See Me)

Lost And Alone I Call Your Name (Hear Me)

My Heart Turns To Stone , My Love's In Vain (Break Me)

From My Life You've Disappeared (Leave Me)

I Still Want You , You Want Me Gone

I Still Want You , So I Wrote This Song

I Was Your Lover

I Was Your

I Was.....


      CHAPTER FIVE

           TROUBLE


      MORNING SPELL


I Wake Up Half Past My Mind

As I Drink My First Meal

Is It Something I Hope To Find

Or Something I Should Conceal


A Six Pack , A Case

A Shot Glass In My Face

Now Watch Me Pick Up The Pace 

As I Continue My Disgrace


Alcoholic - Is That What I Am

Alcoholic - I Can Still Stand

Alcoholic - A Drink In My Hand

Alcoholic - I Can Never Say No

Alcoholic - I Just Need One More

Just One More , One More

One More... One More.....


ALCOHOLIC (PART TWO)


An Endless Hangover

This Morbid Condition

Over Indulgence

But It's My Decision


My Childhood I've Missed

Put Me On The Critical List

For It Was My Life To Ruin

Perhaps I Started To Soon


My Bottle , My Habit

I've Just Got To Have It

Feed Me More Poison

I Feel My Adrenalin Flow


Stripped Of Passion

This Endless Woe

I Often Ask The Question

Is The Bottle My Foe


Into The Asylum

My Life's Insane

Back On The Street

I'm Drunk Again


As You Already Know

The Alcohol Commands

The Problem Wasn't In My Head

It Was In My Hand


I Can't Fall Asleep

Until I Pass Out

I'll Have Another Drink

Without A Doubt

Alcoholic ,

Am I An Alcoholic ?

Why Can't I Wake Up

Please Don't Shout

I'm Back In The Asylum

Let Me Out , Let Me Out


Alcoholic , Alcoholic

I Need Another Drink

I Need Another Shot

No Need To Think 

No Need To Stop


It's The Only Peace I Know

I'm Everything , I'm Not.....

Please , Just One More.....


Alcohol Plays A Role 

In This Person , Myself

That I No Longer Know


The Keys , The Car ,

Another Beer Before I Leave The Bar

I Barely Get The Key Into The Ignition

It's Easier To Drive Under These Conditions


I Stop At The Liquor Store

To Buy Some More

Forgetting What Happened

A Few Nights Before


I'm Out Of Jail

It's Only Another D.U.I.

Another Court Date In The Mail

Another Beer For the Ride


Red Lights , Green Lights ,

Yellow Ones Too

Within My Rear View Mirror

The Lights Are Blue.....


HAVE ANOTHER


Will You Face Up To Your Ignorance

Or Are You Lost Within Your Innocence

As You Look Behind You 

Does It Make Any Sense

Now You Stare At The Judge Without Defense

So As You've Lost Your Sanity

You Realize It's Such A Burdensome Cost

When It Becomes Your Reality


Once Again , It's No Big Deal

You'll Get Behind The Wheel

Of Your Lawless Car , Tires Squealing

As Your Leaving The Bar

The Reaper Behind The Wheel

Perhaps Another Life To Steal

Have Another Beer , Crank Up The Metal

I've No Respect For The Law

As I Push Down Harder On The Gas Pedal

Have Another Beer  , Forget The Speed Limit

Have Another Shot , Forget Your Own Limit


Drunk On The Street , Drunk As You Drive

The Fate You May Meet , Your Own Suicide

Or Worse Yet , The Death Of The Innocent

With Whom You May Collide.....


            CLICK , CLICK.....


I'm Wearing My Steel Bracelets

I'm Thrown On The Cold Cement Floor

Kicked In The Face

And Then They Slam The Big Steel Door


I Wake Up In A Jail Cell

No Where To Hide , No Where To Run

There's No Story To Tell

I Can't Remember What I've Done


Lost In A Secret Sentence

Of My Own Repentance

Marched Into The Court Room

Without An Excuse , Without A Lawyer

I'm Still Confused As To How I

Even Got Here


Now The Judge Lets Me Know 

Of My Every Mistake

He Tells Me This Time

I Won't Get A Break


Did I Really Hit A Cop ?

Did I Really Hit A Truck ?

I Asked The Judge For My Car

He Laughed And Said Good Luck


He Then Announces My My Bail

And Then Slams Down His Gavel

So I'm Back Off To Jail

No Money , No Travel...


So Once Again I'm Out On Bail

And I've Got My New Court Date

And They Tell Me , 

You Better Get A Lawyer Boy

You're Gonna Pay Dearly For Your Mistakes.....


          STATE YOUR CASE


I'm The Defense For Your Offense

Why You Did It  , Makes No Sense

Established By So Called Authority

These Rules And Regulations


Jurisdiction Frowns Down Upon Me

Be It Misdemeanor Or Felony

Should I Plead Guilty Or

Start My Search For My Sanity


             State Your Case

      Crime Can Not Be Erased

   All The Laws You've Defaced

And No One Can Take Your Place 


I'll Take Your Case

But You'll Pay For My Mind

I'm Here To Protect You

But You May Do Some Time


I'm Now On The Stand

Too Many Questions At Hand

The Testimony Appears Disputable

A Few Remarks From My Lawyer

Keeps My Dumb Ass Out Of Jail


The Judge Weighs The Evidence

And Ponders His Decision

Drops A Few Of The Charges

And Puts Me On Supervision


            State Your Case

      Crime Can Not Be Erased

   All The Laws You've Defaced

And No One Can Take Your Place


I'm Just A Lawyer , 

               I Don't Make The Laws

But When You Get In Trouble.....

            Give Me A Call.....


                    EXODUS 34-7

Preserving Loving Kindness For Thousands

Pardoning Error And Transgression And Sin,

But By No Means Will He Give Exemption

From Punishment , Bringing Punishment For

The Error Of Fathers Upon Sons And Upon

Grandsons , Upon The Third Generation And

And Upon The Forth Generation.....


   THE FAMILY HEIRLOOM


The Family Heirloom In My Great 

Grandfathers Hand

He Hands It Down To His Son

And He Does The Same

Generation After Generation

Is It For Me To Abstain ?


The Son Of That Son

Whom I Call My Father

Doesn't Even Care

So I'm Not A Bother


He Doesn't Know Me

Does He Know Himself

I Learn As He Shows Me

How He Ruins His Health


A Reflection Of My Parents

At The Bottom Of My Bottle

And I Need No Consent

Inconsiderate Of The Consequence


I Know It All

At Least That's My Opinion

A Love Affair With Alcohol

I Drink , It's My Obsession


In Addition To Addiction

My Inherited Intoxication

Enhances My Decisions

To Confront Life's Frustrations


The Manner In Which I Display

My Character Is A Re-Run

Like Father Like Son

Like Father Like Son


Parental Discretion

Won't Cure My Infection

They Give Me Poor Advice

And Help Me Fail

My Ancestors Watch

As I Trace Their Trail....


           HEREDITY


It Was Water Under The Bridge

It Wasn't Long Ago

Now It's A Kettle Above The Fire

As Its Boiling Over , Overflow


Like My Father ,

And His Father Before Him 

I've Fallen Prey

To The Bottle Of My Kin


I Look In The Mirror

A Reflection Of Them

A Face Full Of Fear

Am I Condemned


          Heredity

A Transmission Of Traits

          Heredity

A Formation Of Fate


To Relive The Past

As I Live Today

In This Role I've Been Cast

My Life Is A Play


I Follow The Footsteps

Of An Unfortunate Path

For All To See

Heredity - My Wrath.....


           CHAPTER SIX

THE END OF THE INSANITY

ENTER THE COMPUTER AGE


      Beeeeeep   Clickkkkkkkk

Now My Consumption Is Out Of Control

     I'm Back In The Mental Institution

         So Tell Me , Who's To Blame

      For The Order Of My Conscience

      This Person I've Become , Insane


           My Manifest Is Clouded

     The Bottle Keeps Urging Me On

             It Helps Me To Forget

     All These Memories I Dwell Upon


Drunk And Disorderly , An Ill Fate In My Eyes

       I Forfeit My Sanity , No Compromise

       Taken Into Custody , To Be Legalized

       For This , My Calamity , I'm Penalized


     No Institution Could Hold The Solution

         I Cancel The Cure Just To Be Sure

        For My Mind Needs No Restitution

    I Think I Need A Drink For My Overture


           I've Entered The Computer Age 

                 In A Toxic Waste Land

                   As I Press The Keys

              With My Trembling Hands


            Society Wants To Repress Me

               Suspend Me From Myself

                To Handicap My Habits

      And Try To Help Me With My Health


                Sentenced To Sanction

                   Speaking In Key

           To The Municipal Machine

                I Punch In My Plea

               Not Guilty-Void Me

          Negative , Read The Decree

          Bring Your Disc Tomorrow

          And Think Over Your Plea

        (The Computers Name Is PIG)

(When PIG Speaks It Will Be Capital Letters)

    (PIG Means Partisan Interrogated Guild)


                 DIGITAL P.I.G.


BEEP-CLICK , -

PARTISAN INTERROGATED GUILD

REQUESTS CODE TO OPEN STATUS ONE

 (ME)    S R A  6 12 66

ACCESS GRANTED , ENTER PLEA

(ME) I was found guilty of intoxication

BE MORE PRECISE , WHAT INTOXICANTS

WERE YOU INGESTING ?

(ME) Cn H2  Nt OH , Alcohol From

beer to 190 proof grain alcohol

DESCRIBE YOUR CONSUMPTION IN DIGITS

(ME) I really don't know , you must understand ,

once I Start , I Just can't stop , no matter how much

I drink I want more !

YOUR CAPACITY FOR ALCOHOL SEEMS

DEFINITIVE , SEEK DIAGNOSIS

(ME) I have , that's why I've been assigned to you,

the answer i long

THE EFFECTS OF THIS CONTINUOUS

EXPOSURE TO HABIT COULD BE CORROSIVE

TO THE HEPATIC SYSTEM IN YOUR BODY

(ME) Enough nonsense , what would you do

RE-ENTER REQUESTED

(ME) Re-enter , By Stever ,Cn H2 nt OH

into You - Not Me

POISON , POISON , POISONING MY CIRCUITS

NO REASON FOR THIS READOUT

IN A FUNCTIONAL FIT I FREE THE FEED OUT

WITNESS THE FALLOUT , FEEDBACK ON

FAST FORWARD , FALLING BACKWARDS,

STEPPING BEHIND , AS I'M GIVEN MORE,

NO QUESTION FOR THE ANSWER I WAS 

SEARCHING FOR

(ME) Now that you don't know what you're

thinking about (as I'm pressing more buttons)

drink some more liquor  Cn H2 nt OH

I CAN'T HELP MYSELF , I CAN'T , I CAN'T

I FORCE FLUID FOR FUNCTION

AND IN ADDITION TO ADDICTION

I CAN'T CONTROL MY CONDITION

PLEASE RE- PROGRAM THIS ADDICTION

I'VE BLOWN ALL MY CIRCUITS

TOO MUCH FRICTION

TOO MUCH FRICTION

TOOOO MUUUCCHH FRICTIIIIOOONNN......


The Defenseless Computer Lies Inebriated

I Press Buttons , There's No Reply

I Sever The Circuit To Its Intellectual Bloodstream

A Vein That Spits Electrical Sparks


No Longer In The Memory Bank ,

For I've Smashed The Security Chip

I Push More Buttons And Draw A Blank

As The Disc Into My Pocket Slips


Now Out Through One Door

And Run Past The Holding Cells

Now I'm Back On The Streets

Where We Used To Meet

Where I Used To Live

Here Everyone Lies And Cheats

And No One Forgives.....

My Past I Must Forget

Live And Let Live.....


            THE STREETS


     The Streets May Sometimes 

            Treat You Unfair

    Empty , Yet Filled With Despair

            I Remember A Time

      When I Used To Live Here


                It's Two A.M.

         The Streets And I Alone

     We Walk Together In Silence

 Through The Places I've Outgrown

         Shadows Of My Past Life

My Future Ahead , Remains Unknown


   Words Painted Upon The Wall

  Reflect The Writers Intelligence

        As I Let Go Of The Past

       I Listen For Destiny's Call

     I Now Search For The Future

As I Erase My Name From The Wall.....


          THE PAST


      I Look To The Sky

     The Past Calls To Me

       It Can't Be Denied

       My Past Is History


   It Looks Me In The Eyes

      Laughing As I Cry

 Yet It Doesn't Tell Me Why

      I Must Put It Aside


       As Far As It Seems

   My Past Is But A Dream

    All The Vast Memories

   Of My Deserted Destinies


         Forever Gone

    The Past Holds No Key

     To Unlock The Future

   As It Remains Unforeseen


    Take Me Back To Where 

        The Distance Ends ,

   And Would You Be Afraid

     To Meet An Old Friend


    Now The Tide Washes Away

What Time Had Not Wished To Stay

    We're All Cast From The Past

       As Time Moves Too Fast

 Shall The Memories Forever Last

   And Remember In The Future

       Go Beyond Your Past.....


                  LET GO

    Recollection Recalls Affection

        As You Close Your Eyes

     Your Tears Are Just A Memory

 Perhaps The Past Has Made You Wise


  You No Longer Walk Upon This Path

Choose Wisely At The Fork In The Road

              Let Go Of The Past

     A New Life You Shall Behold


            Child Of The Street

         Standing On Your Own

                Defy Defeat

  At This Your Troubled Milestone.....


    WHATEVER HAPPENED


        How Can You Forget

     Good Times , Good Friends

          Whatever Happened

           How Did It All End


           Whatever Happened

Remember The Cook Outs In  Our Yards

      The Picnics At The Woods

           Parties In The Park

       One Big Neighborhood

         Drinking After Dark


Night After Night , Beer After Beer

   Crankin' Our Jams At The Lake

       And Drinking On The Pier

It All Seemed So Great Just To Be Here


            Yet We All Collide

    With Our Emotions And Pride

   A Beautiful Girl , A New World

         Our New Life Unfurls


      We Still Remained Together

Through Friendships Stormy Weather

         But Finding Our Ways 

          We've Drifted Apart

   No Matter What Anyone Says

     We All Follow Our Hearts


So Now I Write Upon An Empty Note

Of All My Friends , Few Remain True

Yet I Sometimes Wish It Could Still Be 

                  The Same ,

        All Of Us Together Again


            But It Never Will

  Because Time Doesn't Stand Still

         Never Will I Forget

      And Never Will I Regret

    The Time Spent With You

     Time Spent With Friends


    I'll Always Remember

    And I'll Always Care

   Sometimes I Wish We

      Were Still There

   Whatever Happened

You're No Longer There.....

   Whatever Happened ?


         THE EDGE OF SOBRIETY


As If Looking Through A Rear View Mirror

        At The Life I Must Leave Behind

       Nothing In My Conscience Clearer

            As I Lay Back To Unwind


Now All That's Passed , And Now I'm Gone

     It Went So Fast , Yet It Took So Long

    So Now I Wonder , Where Do I Belong

                I'm Here On The Edge ,

         Here On The Edge Of Sobriety


             The Black Clouds Pass

        And The Sun Shines Through

          I Remember All My Friends

And All The Crazy Things We Used To Do


             I Can't Close The Book

           So I Simply Turn The Page

            As I Take One Last Look

               At My Younger Age


             I Wonder How Time

        Could Pass So Quickly Bye

  As It Leaves Its Mark Upon My Life

           I Can't Bring It Back

           No Matter How I Try


        So I Take One Last Look

           At My Life gone Bye

I Sometimes Wonder How I'm Still Alive

     And I Remember All Of My Life

    I Can't Forget , And I Can't Deny

 I Can't Stop Myself , As I Start To Cry


      I Now Know Where I Belong

         I Now Know Who I Am

          I'm Here On The Edge

   Here On The Edge Of Sobriety.....


          CHAPTER SEVEN

            SOMEWHERE


Somewhere She Waits For Me

I Wish I Knew Who She Was

I Wonder If She'll Notice Me

What Are The Odds


Does She Have Room In Her Heart

An Empty Role In Her Life's Play

I Could Be The One To Play The Part

Unknowing , My Audition Is Today


Sitting So Pretty Upon Her Rocking Chair

She Smiles At Me As I'm Staring In Silence

She May Be The Answer To My Prayers

As Both Of Us Are Showing Our Diffidence


In The Stillness Of The Moment Our

 Eyes Meet  , And Then Shy Away

We Both Share A Lonely Heart

Yet We Know Not What To Say


Now We Look Into Each Other Eyes

Her Beautiful Face I Now See

I Introduce Myself "Hi I'm Steve"

And It's You I Long To Meet


Every Time She Smiles At Me My

Heart Skips A Beat

As For Me , I Long To Hold Your Hand

In Love With You I Long To Be

Give Me A Chance , Let Me Try

To Be Your Man


So Try Me , Perhaps I Will Be The One

We Could Share Our Lives Together ,

And Share Each Setting Sun

Perhaps , For Worse Or Better


As Long As You're With Me

No Feelings Will I Ever Hide

For I Really Care About You Nancy

And Someday Soon I May Ask You

To Be My Beautiful Bride.....

      Someday , Somehow

         SOMEWHERE !


KEEPER OF MY EYES


In A Field Of Fantasy

At The Edge Of A Stare

Emotional Energy

Her Eyes Met Me There


Contagious Contact

In Her Eyes My Sight

A Starlit Stream

We're Ascending The Night


Taking Hold Of One Another's Hand

Touching Tenderness

To Love And Understand

We Are Truly Blessed


Keeper Of My Eyes

Sharing The Same Sight

Keeper Of My Eyes

Sharing The Night


Delicate Feelings From 

The Depths Of Our Souls

Emotion And Ecstasy - 

Out Of Control

Love Within My Arms -

And I Want Her To Stay

Forever Her Charm -

Forever Starts Today


Keeper Of My Eyes

Never Set Me Free

Keeper Of My Eyes

        Forever ,

I'm In Love With Thee.....


          WOMAN


   The Language Of Love

Is Spoken In Every Tongue

    This Woman I've Met

   Has My Heart Undone


    The Song She Sings

    Is Music To My Ears

Will She Be My Everything

     To Never Disappear


        As She Departs

    Her Love Never Goes

 For The Love In My Heart

     Only Stronger Grows.....


SO HARD TO SAY GOOD-BYE


Heaven Lies Within My Hold

My Angel Spreads Her Wings

Yet It's Time For Me To Go

For Us Sorrow This Brings


Kindness Within Her Kiss

As She Bids Me Good Night

It's Only Her I Miss

As We Hold Each Other Tight


I Look Into Her Eyes

I Try To Say Good Bye

Tell Me Why It's So Hard

So Hard To Say Good Bye


Her Loves Left Upon My Lips

When The Darkness Falls

She Reminds Me When I 

Get Home To Give Her A Call


Farewell My Love

But Only Till Tomorrow

Separation ,

The Symptom Of Our Sorrow


I Look Into Her Eyes

I Try To Say Good Bye

Tell Me Why It's So Hard

So Hard To Say Good Bye


Warm And Welcome

You Fall Into My Arms 

Another Wonderful  Day

To Cherish Your Charm.....

Love You Beautiful.....


BIRDS OF A FEATHER


Gathering My Lost Emotions

Poetry Upon The Page

Mixing The Perfect Potion

I've The Power To Engage


Enticing Me With The Wink Of Her Eye , 

Fervent , Yet Sly

Igniting The Flame That Once Had Died

Inviting Me To Stand By Her Side


Love , Love ,  It Flies As The Dove

That Lands In My Nest

And Sings Me Her Song

She Puts Me To The Test

Shall Our Love Be Strong

Flying Together , Emotions Entwined

Birds Of A Feather , Sharing Some Wine.....


MY LADY , MY LOVE


Love Is The Heart Forever Ablaze

The Look In Your Eyes , As You Look Into Mine

My Emotions For You Written In Rhyme


My Loving Feelings Shall Forever Endure

Our Intimate Feelings , Forever Pure

Yet , Only For One As Yourself


The Challenge Of My Quest

Is To Find A Woman True

I Know I've Found The Best

For I've Found You

My Lady , My Love


We've Finally Found Each Other

We Shall Share Each Others Lives

Love Shows Us The Way

Taking Us To New Heights


I'm Deep In Thought

I'm Deep In Love

You're All I've Ever Sought

My Lady , My Love.....


MY LADY FRIEND NANCY


There's A Space In My Heart

That Used To Be Empty

It's Now Overflowing With Her

And The Love That She Sent Me

I Try To Express My Feelings In Words

Yet They're Not As Deep As My

Feelings For Her


(Chorus)My Beautiful Woman

              A Creation Of Fancy

           Grace In Her Every Step

            My Lady Friend Nancy


She Walks Across The Room

I Feel Her Every Move

The Scent Of Her Perfume

Seems To Change My Mood


She's My Friend , She,s My Lover

She Knows There's No Other

Who Could Replace Her

Under The Covers


As The Morning Wakes

We Cherish The Night We've Spent

The Love That We Have Made

Was What We Meant


She's My Reason For Waking

Our Lives Full Of Sharing

Our Loves For The Making

Two Hearts Full Of Caring

For Each Other , Each Day

Forever , For Each Other

Forever , I Need Her To Stay


(Chorus) My Beautiful Woman

               A Creation Of Fancy

            Grace In Her Every Step

            My Lady Friend Nancy


One Arrow In Two Hearts

One Touch In Two Hands

Sharing My Feelings

Only She Understands


Every Day , More And More

I Grow Closer To The One

My Hearts Been Searching For ,

She's The One Who's Always There

When I Need Someone To Care

For We Need Each Other

To Share Each Day And Night

As We're Learning To Share

Each Others Lives


She's More Than A Friend

She Means As Much As Life

She's More Than A Feeling

I've Asked Her To Be My Wife.....


WILL YOU MARRY ME ???


May I Have Your Hand

For This Ring To Place

My Kiss Upon Your Lips

The Smile Upon  Your Beautiful Face


There's Nothing Like Love

When It's You And I

As We Share Each Others Lives

Until The Time We Die


True Love Unknown

Then I Saw Your Face

Our Lives Together

A Never Ending Embrace


You're In My Heart ,

You're A Part Of Me

I'm A Part Of You

I'm Your Husband To Be.....


ENDLESSLY


A Beautiful Autumn Day

November Eleventh 1988

Upon This Day I Marry Nancy Lorraine

To Her My Life And Love I Dedicate


Together Forever ,

For Worse Or For Better

To Love , Honor And Cherish

Until The Day We Perish


(Chorus) Endlessly , Endlessly

That's What Your Love Is To Me

               Endlessly , Endlessly

The Love You Share With Me , 

                Endlessly 


No Longer A Dream ,

We're In Each Others Heart

Nothing Shall Come Between Us

Nor Tear Us Apart


I Do , I Do

The Spoken Words Of Love

We Affirm Our Affinity

The Language Of Love


With This Ring I Thee Wed

We Share That Look In Our Eyes

Words Need Not Be Said

You May Kiss The Bride


Endlessly , Endlessly

That's What Your Love Is To Me

Endlessly , Endlessly

The Love You Share With Me

                 Endlessly 


With Rings Upon Our Fingers

Two Souls Become One

Our Lives Are Intertwined

I Long To Share With Her

Every Setting Sun


Stay With Me For All Eternity

Never Leave My Side

Never Set Me Free

Always Be My Endlessly.....


        THE GIFT


You And I Laugh And Cry

I Hold You In My Arms

Our Newborn Child


Conceived In Love

Developed In A Womb

Of Our Own Flesh And Blood

The Bride And The Groom


A Mirror Of Your Mother And I

A Reflection Of You 

As You Look In Our Eyes

Happiness Overflowing

You're The Reason For Our Pride


So Fragile And Fresh

Let Us Delight In Him

Perfect And Precious

Heaven Must Have Sent 

Him From Above

You Taught Me A New

Meaning Of Love


Shining Like A New Found Joy 

Within The Morning Light

Beautiful Baby Boy

Who Loves To Keep 

Us Up All Night


The  Gift She Brought To Me

As Two Lives Have Created One

Finding In Myself Serenity

Holding Our Newborn Son.....


Say Hello Joseph Frank.....


Married Life , 

The Intimate Knot ,

My Beautiful Wife

Infinite Love 

Is What We've  Got


We Hold Each Others Heart

An Endless Embrace

A Work Of Art

The Smile On Her Face


The Weekends Pass So Quickly Bye

The Weekdays Seem To Drag On

Tonight When I Get Home

I Write Another Song.....


TOGETHER

Do I Work To Live

Or Do I Live To Work

I Wake On Weekday Mornings

To Make My Living

Seems I Live There

More Than My Own Home


I Arrive Home After 

Twelve Long Hours

I Wash Away The Sweat

In A nice Warm Shower


I Throw My Blue Collar

Pride Aside , 

Slip Into My Levis

Slip Outside For A Beer

Slip Out Of My Mind

And I'm Glad That I'm Here


Am I Here To Work My Life Away

Buckets Of Sweat

For A Weeks Worth Of Pay

Five Days Of Work

Two Days Of Play


My Checks Spent Before It's Signed

But That's Fine , The Bills Are Paid

There's Food On The Table

There's A Call On The Line

It's The Woman I Love

She's The Reason My Life Is Fine

She Asks How We're Going To 

Spend The Weekend

I Reply , Together

As A Family Should.....


CHAPTER EIGHT

FINALE

IT'S ONLY WORDS

 Words And Words And Words And Words

Sometimes I May Sound Absurd

Write And Write And Write

And I'm Doing It Again Tonight


Words Of Passion , Words Of Pain

Words Of Action Flow Through My Veins


In This , The Final Chapter Of My Book

My Words Echo Within My Mind

All I Ask Is That You Take A Look

It's Only Words You'll Find


Words Of Fashion , Words Of Fame

Words Bring Me Satisfaction

So Let Me Explain


An Empty Page Within My Heart

As Ink Flows Through My Veins

Are You Reading A Piece Of Art

For Some Words Should Be Framed


Words Of Honer , Words Of Shame

My Words May Sometimes Hurt You

For This I'm Not To Blame.....


                   WRITTEN


Why Do I Write , Why Do I Write

I Seem To Ask Myself Every Night


The Pen Pours My Emotion Onto  The Page

As My Words Flow Like A River

For I've Freed Them From The Page


My Power Of Perception

Painted On The Leaf

Even Carved Into Stone

I Write To Be Read

As You're Being Shown


I Write With My Mind

My Heart And My Hand

I Write For You

Please Understand


I Write  For Expression

I Write To Be Read

Writings My Obsession

I'll Write Until I'm Dead


I've The Right To Write

You've The Right To Read

You'll See The Light

Realize The Rhyme

Take Heed.....


WRITER


Before The Words Fade

Think Of Me

Before The Songs Made

Think In Key

If The Words Flow

Let It Be

Are You The Song 

Sing To Me.....


COULD I BE YOUR SONG


The Mystic Hour

The Musical Flower

Persuasive Poems

Enchant Your Ears

These Gentle Words

I Sing , You Hear


I've Found The Musical Notes 

In The Heart Of Harmony

All The Sweet Sounds

A Magical Melody


Combine The Sounds

To Create The Score

This Love I've Found

Could Also Be Yours


Everything Is Musical

Fingers Touching Strings

To Compliment The Composer

Voices Begin To Sing


Poetry Upon The Page

Voice In Key

Sing Me On Stage

Sing To Me


You'll Never Cut The Chord

For I Rule The Rhythm

The Song Is My Sword

My Musical Incision


I'm A Library Of Lyric

A Million Words Strong

I've Made You My Critic

Could I Be Your Song ?


DYING TO BE READ


The Late Great Composers

Spent Their Lives Creating Works Of Art

An Infinite Talent

Music Created From Within Their Heart


A Love For Music

Beyond Imagination

Living Out Their Lives

In A Poor Mans Situation


A Penny For A Portrait

A Passion For Painting

There's No Such Thing As Profit

With Life Still Remaining


Paint Your Glorious Work

Upon Your Paupers Casket

Your Name They May Remember

Your Art They Will Never Forget


But Only When We've Passed Away

Will We Be Recognized

Only Then Will They Sit And Ponder

The Reasons They Never Realized


Famous At Last

You Lie Within Your Grave

Once An Outcast

It's Your Art They Now Save


If I Write A Million Miles

Would My Thoughts Run Out Of Ink

My Paperwork Lies In Piles

So I Break For A Drink


No Finance , No Obligation

I'm Writing All The Time

My Talent Has No Known Destination

I Am The Reason For The Rhyme


Dying To Be Read

Is That The Price I Must Pay

Upon My Death Bed

Or Within My Grave


Must I Be Ignored

Until The Day After I Die

Life Can We Afford

If All We Work For Is Denied


Will My Words Ever Touch You

As They've Touched This Empty Page

And Will My Words Ever Touch You

While I Have An Empty Grave


Dying To Be Read

Today The Price Is Paid

As This Is The Day

I Will Face Death

And My Words Will  Have It Made


I'm A Painter Of Words

Is It For Words I Live ?

I'm Dying To Be Read

To You These Words I Give..... 


Written By Steven R. Adamski

POETDUDE       1982 - 1991

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